*shrug*
queued for an hour for ray’s dps.. then while i was away, the queue went off. »
finally did the low thing and queued with my healer in same group, then made my healer quit.
ray has better damn well appreciate the measly two emblems.
evil healers to sneak in dpsers in random dungeons ftw. >.<
let’s see.. i’m sleepy, caffeine-screwed, exhausted. i tried calling people and am .. somewhat happy everyone’s as fine as ‘fine’ is.
i found myself holding back, partly because well… maybe at first i didn’t want to ruin anyone’s state at the moment, then it became like it’s cus i didn’t think they’ll take it well for next time… it went somewhere to.. how it’s probably hopeless after all, and somehow dwindled around there.
it’s the usual.. bearing with things, predicting stuff, and taking what small comfort there was. awfully unhealthy. i’m placing a lot on one person who i’ve never talked shit to, and who i have no intention of letting know how screwed up things are.. and it worked. probably a perpetuating factor in views on all this.
small comforts.. and the world is so full of love and light at the simplest things, when all i deal with are sceneries and strangers, and not.. complex thorny interactions.
ah.. well. this is ..pointless, disadvantageous and hypocritical.
tong3 lei2 gong2 dou1 yao2 hei.
