November 2010
3 posts
This night I dreamt, I saw you.
In that apocalyptic script, who would have known that you would be there.
But oh, what smoke and mirror could have made you that spiteful?
A smile, grit, and the hopeful belief for the end…
are washed away upon the Awakening.
And I knew then, as long as I’ll remember, this thorny grip will cloud the sky.
Thorns and Bristles
This is the reality you have built.
This is the reality you have found.
This is it, the one and only;
This is all you’ve got left now.
She said that when my expectations aren’t met, I withdraw.
I say… “Hasn’t it always been that way?”
And because I don’t want to, I’m not.going to.
Cus there’s only so much I can take..and I...
It all feels very raw.
October 2010
11 posts
Paranoia Agent
and so he casts himself and all of his actions according to the only thing that’s ever made him feel like a somebody.
Cheers and fears
Some things ought to be immortalized.
Family moments for example.. How much more support can there be when families show up for their sons’ and brothers’ “graduations”? My brother had his passing out parade from the civil defence academy today and I can honestly say that my parents and I are immensely proud of him.
Ray appeared in two video shots. One as happily pointing...
panda
2 philo readings 1 philo assignment
=due 4pm today=
1 health psych lecture health psych revision of all lectures 1 health psych assignment worth 40% of grade
=due tmr=
…
not enough sleep.
mom’s birthday today.
….
(sigh)
Oolong
“I have no idea what you’re talking about, so here’s a bunny with a pancake on its head.”
babbling
monday class at 12, not 10. stop leaving the desktop ffs… stuff. (and god i never get the hang of mondays) -long drizzle of thoughts-
Something from a site on WoW and escapicism ..
on February 17, 2010 at 12:18 am | Reply krizzlybear
Fucking Emotional Shitstorms. Not even WoW can provide a good escape from them sometimes ;_;
on February 17, 2010 at 7:10 am | Reply DarthRegis
Yes, but...
Some Lyrics
Just a medley of some lyrics from places here and there.
This is your life, is it everything you dreamed that it would be When the world was younger and you had everything to lose (and you had everything to lose)
Waking up I see that everything is ok. The first time in my life and now it’s so great Slowing down I look around and I am so amazed I think about the little things that make...
frustration
a series of dreams
gonna be a bit weird, but fragments are best.
i saw old.. names… wan joo, being perfect and kind and oblivious.. lynn,… i saw jeraldine, and bernice and daphne and .. so many… a mix of all those from the past.. in one setting. seats.
bookshop to be closed for the valuable sand, vice principal, old owner of bookshop, lava, ice rectangles platforms.
a...
On current profile in wow and things i like/dislike
WoW
Hm. Maintenance day. I’ve reached 4.6kgs and maxed jc/enchant. *cheers* And just realised that if there’s one achievement worth getting before the big bad dragon makes a change of deco, it would be obtaining The Loremaster. In a way, it’s kinda like fulfilling my dear brother’s dream also. I kinda wanna hope to...
Going to Oculus is like…. ‘Oh God.. Please let this end… Kill me already..Argh. /wrist.”
Aha. I think I'm an airhead. :D
Let’s see… Yesterday’s evening (family event) and Today’s morning (with brother).
YESTERDAY
Family dinner yesterday at Crystal Jade (omg lol wut) was nice. Everyone was kinda there, although ray could only come later cus of his darn camp stuff. But it was cool seeing my uncle again, and his wife had cut her hair!! I was so surprised cus she’s the daughter of some...
September 2010
23 posts
/facepalm
Took an addiction test somewhere from online and apparently scored higher than 2/3 of respondents. fml.
Well done you! You’ve succesfully spent 10am-1pm just READING about WoW. And the only reason why you are not home yet farming emblems is because of a kant class at 2-3pm which you have not read up yet for.
And did you just try to weasel your way out of piano class again today??
For...
Genius
People who have seen me eat know that I usually only use one hand no matter what. *picks up fork* *stabs* *munch*
The other day, I was having some pasta, but because I like my privacy, I was sitting somewhere a lil obscure but with a really low table, up to my knees. So then I worried a bit cus I recall that eating might be a bit messy. And then..
*right hand spins fork contemplatively around...
More WoW *groans*
Doing well. Some WoW stuff before nap time before Virtue Ethics class.
I saw this and promptly laughed. Quest GREENS have higher GS than whatever 80s who’ve run plenty of heroics got. And that’s not even counting the t11 ilvl359 gear. Basically, whatever triumphs and frosties one have will be capped at 4000 justice points… which is only enough to buy 1 or 2 t11 5-man...
Today and WoW
Stuff
1. Or was it Fatherhood?
So… while walking to the mrt train station with my parents, I decided to go on ahead first since I didn’t have my breakfast yet and gotta buy something. Cue epic fail moment where i dropped my notebooks and some papers and one of my pencils rolled into the drain beneath some metal grill thing. Yes. On the day that I didn’t bring a bag....
Mid-Autumn Festival
“She probably just wants to steal my mooncake! >:(“
…I swear I love this person so..soo much.
Hm. Ok. Happy Mid-Autumn’s to everyone. I managed to hit 77 today (cold weather flying ftw at last!), and had a wonderful dinner with my maternal relatives.
Unfortunately, not all could make it.. like how ray was stuck at wherever and my cousin had exams tmr and her mom was...
Veteran of the Wrathgate
It is SUCH an effing cool cinematic. I just kept squeeing over the glorious lore content. Omg. Omg! Am happy Leonard told me healers go for Wyrmrest Accord rep for the head enchant. I am soo effing happy!! :O
RED DRAKE ONE DAY PLEASE.
How to Cope with World of Warcraft Maintenance Day
Read up on strategy for your class.
Beef up on your strategy. Read ahead for the upcoming boss fights so you’ll be prepared when you reach them.
Sleep. This way you are well rested when WoW Realms come back up.
Night out with parents
If anyone was hanging about Boat Quay today, they might have spotted some girl in an oversized white t-shirt tagging along behing some office man with a suitcase, and an office lady with… well, whatever mom was carrying. Meh.
In anticipation of Mid-Autumn festival, there was a food festival held to celebrate Chinese culture. Naturally, they did the “appealing to the public”...
Menschliches, Allzumenschliches
wow. so much for philo bomb paper. maybe i can pray for mid terms and finals. awwww eff. philo profs, and that hot prof in ab psych… um.. make me damn damn damn nervous about doing well.. cough*hottie*cough
Excuses I make (so that you’ll know when something’s up with me) (sometimes a combination)
I’m ill
My grandparent is ill
Family incident = flying overseas
I have...
hahaha omg who the fuck is hayley??
*goes for quick nap before philo bomb paper.. D: D: D:*
Disney Part II
Part II of Disney songs-lyrics
What can I say? I really love these ones the most. Not easy to rank them though. but anyway, all of these are amazing.
3. Aladdin
One Jump Ahead
“Gotta keep One jump ahead of the breadline One swing ahead of the sword I steal only what I can’t afford ( That’s Everything! )” ..
“[Crowd:] Riffraff! Street rat! Scoundrel! Take...
Well I said I was gonna do it
DISNEY MUSIC FTW.
Part 1 of some of the songs I have on my playlist. They’re here because they summarise the whole movies, speak some great truth, or mostly.. just because i like them. Probably some commentary here and there.
Trust me. It’s long. And only Part 1. *shrugs* Gonna be more scattered than Part 2 - which is my top 3 favourite films. but these are cool too.
and in no...
random stuff.
so before i forget..
quiet staircase + carrot cake + coffee + disney music = pure win
the best date anyone can organise for me is a disney movie screening (and i mean the golden age ones) (aww hell. gimme a marathon)
50% of module grade tmr, and i was busily writing down the nice strands of disney lyrics somewhere- gonna post em up all here
did daily random for the emblems. i realise i love...
DSM
You wouldn’t have guessed that from the way mental health professionals talk so disparagingly of the DSM.. that the damned book is still THE bible. Kinda like seeing someone badmouth something, yet still hold it tightly by his side.
Fascinating.
And. Relational Disorder as DSM-V entry?
Oh cmon. You can do better than that >.>
To my utmost surprise, there really are days when I feel like a bastard.
Not that I’m not, but to actually ‘feel’ like one? :O
Wonders never cease.
*shrug*
queued for an hour for ray’s dps.. then while i was away, the queue went off. »
finally did the low thing and queued with my healer in same group, then made my healer quit.
ray has better damn well appreciate the measly two emblems.
evil healers to sneak in dpsers in random dungeons ftw. >.<
let’s see.. i’m sleepy, caffeine-screwed, exhausted. i tried calling...
Pain
The kind where you arch your back, shut your eyes tight and hear something slash the tendons in your chest
The kind that causes a deep swelling that crushes the core and makes you see yourself crashing knees-first onto the floor
The kind which leaves you attempting to howl continuously just for kicks and out of calm curiosity of whether it’s supposed to make things better
The kind that...
Things that happened today
Hazy class
Lunch with parents
Doctor’s appointment
Sleep/Nap
Other things include… some nice smses, a date on thurs, and farewell to the following:- -Necrosis (bg and levelling extraordinaire) -Prite (guild leader /respect) -Spidro (fail rogue) -Elesshar (druid boy) -Speak (sweet kid)
Because these guys made things fun and I will want to remember them. It’s very hard to...
The Repugnant Conclusion
It’s so hard to breathe.
I wonder if people know how deathly afraid I am of each and every single one of them… of the influence they have on my psyche. It is this haunting whisper that surfaces every time I hear someone’s voice, or notice someone laugh.
I hate them. And I think it’s because I’m scared of them.
One thing I find so awful to the point of hatred, is if...
oO
pardon my language but…oh fuck this shit..
my project is on agoraphobia.. panic disorder/attack.
wth way to give me a heads up before hand.
When it seems life is exactly about that
The community is alive.
Oh my god…
:’(
:’)
…Oo..
>.<
Should I rejoin as horde hunter Calisong again?…. but…. AUUUUGH. *dilemma*
Blue Screen of DEATH
Thanks for being there for my BSOD moments.
Today’s one was pretty bad… But. thank god for all those who care enough to indulge me.
August 2010
23 posts
friends
i’ve got some pretty good ones.
… can’t have appreciated them enough.
wish they all knew.
Last thoughts before being lost in BC (at last)
=Upon hearing generally about how Kant formulates his ethical theory….=
Vivi: ….O___________________O
… o shi.
bzzzz
In which crap is suffered
There might be like.. 50 emails in the club’s inbox, of which I have not bothered to clear since I just couldn’t take all this admin stuff that seems so pointless. (even though I really ought to…. maybe. soon.)
Oh. And I find that I really don’t like this person, although the person has known me for a really long time and vice versa. Goddarn...
guilt
sigh..
is nothing sacred anymore?
oh and i dont really like you but you know that...
wiiiiipe away.. wiiiiiipe.
dependence
And all the songs go la dee dah~
violated dream
you’ve got to be kidding me…
i understand if i was the one who cut things up
but if some other hand came in and gouged what i didnt know was there out…
..
oh what am i to do? it seems i actually do care after all… and the aftermath is just..
This yawning, terrifying blank.
when gms quit :O
don’t know what you got til it’s gone
and if you’re lucky, you’ll get it back to treasure it some more
and if not, well.. whatever comes that resembles the dream will just ache a lil each time…
maybe.
escapist
One thing about Abnormal Psych.. is that it becomes so easy for one to diagnose himself. Apparently, it’s a well known fact that many Psych students get even more depressed after taking the course. (and more frustrated, and more gay)
Oh you know.. stuff.
I think I’d make an interesting case study actually. Although I’m not sure what of. But I think I’m somewhere at an...
Long entry on morality
Hm.. So upon request. Here’s an update.
School started, I’m mostly doing ok. Pretty interesting classes:-
Psych: Bio, Abnormal, Health, Developmental Philo: Normative Ethical Theory, Major Moral Philosophers
The reason why I don’t go on msn nor update as much is because of the usual mood swings. You know the ones.
So there.
On Morality
Let’s see… I kinda have...
No brainer
Looking through the term assignment for Developmental Psychology.. this was what i saw.
“Assigned topic.. blah.. blah.. issues all related to Piaget’s original and subsequent theory.. blah.. blah.. choice of topics.. cognitive… blah blah.. moral….
… MORAL.
Moral Development theory - Kohlberg
…
And that’s that. Topic chosen for the sem.
Oh. And I...
"You're actually thinking about it... really...
URL change because of this, and the sudden realisation that Birth by Sleep is on PSP.. and I actually DO have a freaking PSP. (me, duh) *thinks deeply on whether to get*
… Oh.. That, and avoidance is a pretty and elegant thing.
(*For the japanophiles and those who like awesome)
Hope Spot
“It’s gorgeous!”, someone behind exclaimed.
Having sneaked into Cell Biology class with Boonie, I looked blearily up from Aristotle’s taunts for all unlearned students….
…
*blinks*
/stares at cross section of cell organelles
…
…/looks back to Aristotle
…*shudders*